God, I love my life!
It is incredible how many learnings there are and how freeing it is to learn new ways of living.

I am currently sitting in one of the David Lloyd clubs in London, we are on holiday here.
David is outside on the golf course with his son Cameron.

I am inside watching younger and older people go about their fitness routine, and writing this blog entry.
The first one in a long time. We also didn’t podcast in a while.
Not because of a lack of topics. Rather because things are moving faster now and a lot has happened.
My growth process is immensely intense. So much has happened I don’t know where to start.

But the title wrote itself and has a lot to do with the growth I am experiencing.

I got my birth chart reading.
As David had told me, when we tried to get it online but it never really worked, “It will come.”
And it did.

An amazing soul in Canada who came to us through our Mission work recently read my chart to me.
And, what can I say?
It is a WOW chart.
Isis and Mary Magdalene are with me every step of the way.

And he mentioned temptations.
I sat with that.

For me it turned out it isn’t about sweets or whatever else might be commonly associated with the word temptations.
It is about the well-trodden paths we take again, and again, and again.
The habitual ways we react to things. The so well known reactions in the form of emotions and feelings that we had sooo many times.

Let’s go into the detail here with an example from my life.

The fear of being neglected, not loved, and left.
Today, I realised how deep it sits and how arbitrarily it can come up.

It happened today when David changed his place from the bedroom, where I was, to the living room, to eat his breakfast.
So out of nowhere I reacted weirdly and gave him shaming looks.
Not consciously at all.
Then I had a good look at what just happened.
‘Cause there is no reason for me to worry in any way.
We are in such a good place, it’s like a dream. We are in a holy union. 🥰❤️🥰

What I saw was the sea, a scary sea.
A sea that made me scared of drowning in its waves.
Well, “What can I do about that?” I asked myself.

Of course. I gotta love myself!
So I embrace myself with love and jump in.

The sea is made up of all my past lives where I have been a victim or a perpetrator. So all the painful, neglecting, hurting, killing, torturing, betraying & being left, and leaving experiences are in there.
And any memory popping up out of “nowhere” pulled me into the waves.

I got terrified of having it happen to me or doing it to David again, and to slip down the slippery slope, having been tempted by the path I am used to sliding down.
Into self-loathing misery and victimhood. In fear of my own (self-)destructive powers.

Accepting all of it with love turns the sea into a ball which is first in me and then lands in my Book of Life, where it now makes up one page.

This beautiful process allowed me to resist the temptation of the same old path later in the day and I could instead be loving to David.

I thank myself for this life! Sometimes unbelievable for my human it is so incredibly beautiful that every breath fills me with ecstasy. Wow!